My circadian rhythm is severely confused and the lack of sleep might be the cause of my migraines after 12 A.M. since I have to wake up at 4:30 A.M.
I needed to get this out though. It was important to me. Some of you might know a classmate/friend died while playing football in the water with his cousin when a rip tide swept him away and his cousin died while saving him. Its depressing and every time I see his face, I feel guilty not to have been closer with him. He was always nice to me, I would always joke with him and he was so intelligent and a kind hearted person you wouldn't believe such a guy would exist. But this isn't the point of my entry, and he doesn't need any sort of introduction of how good of a guy he was and what he could of done because he was one of those guys that gave off such a healthy positive vibe.
On to the point…many of my questions about life or death can't be answered. Do I believe in god, yes, but why does god take away the innocence and leave the horrid. I guess what I'm trying to say is a little reckless because that horrid person is a mother, a father, a friend, a son, a daughter, but nevertheless physically human too with a brain, two eye balls and etc. I'm just tired of seeing people die. I'm tired of diverging paths of what could of been and what it is now. I'm not ready to experience death. I wish I could stop death, but its a power that is too great to have. "In Islam we believe life and death is written," and in a matter of time it would eventually happen called fate. The good die young, but I generally hate that statement because I believe we strongly need more good in this messed up world.
I send full heartedly my condolences to all of the deaths of last month and this month.
p.s. I experienced a horribly dream, that i dear not utter about death. I just hope it doesn't happen.
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I'm sorry about not iming you after, my parents wouldnt allow me to go to the funeral and it really ticked me off,
this might not help or even fill the position of a constellation prize but i believe things happen for a reason.. Sometimes people aren't needed in our world.. He and his cousin is at peace enjoying a path set for them, together... sorry bro its hard seeing great people leave you behind.. but we will all meet again someday<3!......
idk why but i read this blog again and i realized some truths to your blog, "The good die young" is a saying that is bitter, i honestly lost faith in god, why, how and who gets to die...choosing anthers death, no being in the world should have that power, who will we be left when all the good is gone
but then i look and see that there is still some good people in this world left, including urself lookman, i know i really havent seen or talked to you that much over the summer, im going to def cherish and miss all the talks at work, school and in the middle of the night. they are fond memories.
I guess i'll see u when i see you, till next time
I do agree that things happen for a reason and we are all living something called "life". I always associated "things happen for a reason" to good things. I can't bare to associate this to death though and barely can associate death to reality, especially if they are so close.
kevin, there is definitely still some good in this world, and i think that its really hard to find the good in people. Only if that goodness didn't only come out during times of disaster.
Its weird how you leave down the block and I haven't seen you once this summer. We are both busy people and I totally understand. We've built a unique friendship and i hope to preserve it no matter when I'm and and where ever you are.
I'll see you when I see you, till next time
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